Sunday, March 25, 2012

Happy THIRD Birthday Callan!

6lbs 5oz. 18 1/2" long.
3 years ago today, at 3:55am, I gave birth to the strongest, toughest, most stubborn little boy.  Callan has ALWAYS been stubborn. It's his way or no way.  He's super shy (like his mommy!) but isn't afraid to tell you to get away from him or that he doesn't like you.

My wittle 1 month old baby Callan.

Callans birth was very dramatic.   My husband had gotten a promotion and we were temporarily living in a town 3 hours away from my ob/gyn.  I had been going back and forth just for appointments, which was hard!  About a week before Callan was born I got really really sick .. I didn't even have a voice!  My ob/gyn assured me that it was safe to take Tylenol Cold & Flu while pregnant.

Corbin & Callan.
Well, fast foward a week and some days.  I'm still taking the medicine. I just couldn't get better!  At 11:30pm I started having contractions.  By 2:30am I knew it was really happening.  So my husband rushed me to the hospital.  I don't know if they just weren't paying attention, or really didn't know what they were doing. But my whole birth experience with him was terrible.  They thought that I had not had any prenatal care during my entire pregnancy.  They tried getting records, but no one would call them back from my drs office. (Which is a blessing, because I had signed papers for a tubal!  If they had gotten the papers I wouldn't have a Cason!)
18 months old.

I was getting my spinal for my c-section when the dr walks in.  He said that my blood test had tested positive for meth!!!  (FYI I have never done a drug in my life!)  He started calling me a meth head, and was telling me that he was going to call cps to have my kids taken away because drug addicts don't deserve children. Remember, all of this was going on while a huge needle was going into my back. :/
Callan and big sister Ashlynn.

I was freaking out.  He was so rude, and mean to me, and I didn't understand what was going on!  I kept asking questions during the surgery and he wouldn't even talk to me.  He didn't even show me Callan after he was born!   My husband couldn't come in with me because we had the kids, and no one to watch them. They didn't even update him for an hour and a half after surgery!!  The dr did call cps. They had to search the apartment that we were staying in and found nothing, of course!  So first thing when we left the hospital we both had to go for more accurate drug testing. Needless to say, we passed!  After some googling, I found out that you can have a false positive for methamphetamines while taking cold medicine! 
Ashlynn, Callan, Corbin, & Zackary.
Callan and Corbin.
Top 10 things that I love about Callan:

1. You are so tough. I know you can handle anything.
2. When you randomly say "You're the best mommy ever!" You know how to melt my heart!
3. You secretly deep down love your brothers and sister.

4. The smile on your face when it's time to eat!
5. When I ask you your name and you say "Spiderman Anderson".
6. You are so brave. You have been through so much for a little boy. I am so proud of you!
7. The way you tell Daddy to go to his room if you don't like what he says or does.
8. That you love love love swimming.
9. You are so smart!
10.You have the greatest imagination!
He's so tough!

Mommy sure does love you Mr. Callan Riker!

Friday, March 23, 2012

The sickies.

Last Sunday I had to take Corbin (4) and Callan (2) to Urgent Care.  They both had double ear infections (their first ear infections ever!), pink eye, tonsillitis, and the flu. They were nice enough to pass on their colds to us. So sweet!  I haven't been sick in over a year, and it's going on almost a week now .... which means my house is a MESS!

Callans blood sugar has been weird. He's only been sick one other time since diagnosis.  He ran super high then, and that's when we wound up in the ER.  Well this time is completely different!  He has been super low.  He's eating the same, and we went one day without giving any Novolog at all.   Well, I guess he's better now.  Today he was 505 before lunch. Can't we get an in between?

My husband and I have been talking about relocating.  We always knew that moving to New Mexico wasn't permanent, but we were planning on being here a little bit longer.  But with everything that's been happening we are trying to speed it up a bit.  Cason (1) is allergic to dust .. and living in the desert with a sandbox as a backyard isn't quite the best environment for his allergies.  Plus we'd like to be closer to an endocrinologist.  Right now we have a 7hr drive round trip.

Do any of y'all have any suggestions on better places to live with children with allergies?  


Monday, March 5, 2012

The crazies.

All of this stress has finally caught up to me.  My dr sent me to the ER last week because of chest pain, which we ultimately found out was caused from STRESS. My RESTING heart rate was 112 bpm. RESTING!   Along with some excellent medication, I'm supposed to spend 20 minutes a day doing something just for me.  I'm not allowed to think about diabetes, allergies, money, or anything that might cause me stress.  Who are these people kidding?

I don't know about y'all but I can't just shut my mind off.  It is constantly going at full steam....

Did I calculate Callans carb/insulin ratio right?  
Should I check his bg now or is it too soon? 
Is he hugging me because he's low? (which is my cue that he is unfortunately!) 
Did Cason just eat something off of the floor?   
Did it have gluten/peanuts/soy/eggs/dog or cats in it?  
Why is there something on the floor when I just swept and mopped minutes ago?!?!?  

I can go on for hours here people!

So my question for y'all is, how do you get your ME time?  It's been so long that I've done anything that didn't really involve my kids, especially kids with medical needs, that I don't even know what to do!  If I sit down to read a book it's usually a book about diabetes or allergies.  If I get on the computer I'm pinning things about diabetes or allergies.  What else is there to do?  Is there actually life beyond diabetes and allergies?!?  Help me!


Thursday, March 1, 2012


There is an event on facebook called Write HOPE on your hands for diabetes.  March 1st is "Hope for a cure for Diabetes" day.  The event has people writing hope on their hands and taking a picture of it. They then post the pictures on the page, and let everyone know who they are hoping for.

Here's our picture:

Come join in!!

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